Rambling...
Feb. 15th, 2008 07:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
prosodicI had a lot of very odd dreams last night. The last one I had before waking had to do with me deleting my Live Journal. In my dream, Lance approached me and told me that he was getting very uncomfortable with the stuff I was writing, so he wanted me to shut down my LJ. And I did.
It's funny, because Lance doesn't even read what I post here. He used to, but not anymore. He already knows what happens in my life on a daily basis, because I tell him about it. He doesn't need to read it.
But now I'm analyzing what Live Journal truly means to me. I've been using LJ in some form or another for nearly 7 years. But it's not as cathartic for me as it used to be. I examine the really intense issues in my paper journal, more often than not.
And I just don't think my life is as exciting as it used to be. When I started my LJ in 2001, I was just about to go to grad school. Lance and I had just started dating. Grad school was always full of interesting LJ material...struggles I had with teaching College Composition, juggling an academic life and a long-distance relationship, trying to get along with my roommate, my comprehensive exams.
Then there was my engagement, planning the wedding, moving to Germany.
Four years in Europe.
All that stuff was far more interesting than what I face now. And my LJ has suffered since I've moved here. And I've given serious thought to scaling back my writing on here and focusing more on other things. I have serious writing projects that have been collecting dust for awhile. At some point, I need to pick them up again. (And please...no comments lecturing me about the novel I abandoned...I know...I know.)
And we still have SO MUCH work to do on the house, which seems to be a real subject of interest to some people. I still intend to post about that, when there is something to post. Right now, we're still working on the same project we've been working on since the day after we closed on the house. I don't want to post anything else, especially photos, until it's actually done. And there are smaller projects that need doing, like hanging pictures and putting up shelves. And after we finish phase 1 of this current project, we need to find new flooring for the kitchen, and we're ripping out the pantry shelves and completely re-doing the pantry. There is always something to be done.
I think I want to try to get in the habit of writing in my paper journal more. I already do it more than I used to, but I want to depend on it more than I depend on LJ. I used to spend hours writing in paper journals when I was in high school. I wish I had that kind of discipline now.
Anyway...on to other things...
I got my shipment of books yesterday from my editor, so I'm now a book critic once again. The first book I felt compelled to grab out of the box was All for Love: The Scandalous Life and Times of Royal Mistress Mary Robinson. It was just released recently, so I figured I should get that done so that a review can be as timely as possible. Plus, I've been on a Philippa Gregory kick lately, so this was a good book to pick up after hers (Amanda Elyot is the author of this one, if anyone is interested). So far, so good.
Lance texted me to let me know he was on his way home when I was on chapter 2, I think, so I didn't get that far into it. Once I knew he was coming home, I started fixing our appetizer and I unloaded the dishwasher. And then my focus was completely on him once he came home, so I didn't pick up the book again.
Overall, we had a nice evening. Some cheesy bread. Some pizza. I had a delicious Washington State Riesling. The cheesecake I picked up was kind of disappointing. We played 4 games of Yahtzee...I beat Lance 3 games to 1. It wasn't a particularly special evening...just quiet. And we were together. And that's what mattered.
He works half a day today. I have a doctor appointment at 11. We should be getting home around the same time. We'll have leftovers from last night and then head to McChord to take care of some business. Then our evening will be spent stripping wallpaper. Lance just needs to decide if we should prime the walls or paint the ceiling this weekend. My goal is to knock this part of the project out over the next 2-3 weekends, before Lance goes to training at OKC.
Then I want the flooring to be absolutely the next thing we do. The current linoleum in the kitchen always looks dirty just because of the pattern on it. And it's white besides. It's hideous and I hate it. And Lance complains about it too, so it's not just me.
It's funny, because Lance doesn't even read what I post here. He used to, but not anymore. He already knows what happens in my life on a daily basis, because I tell him about it. He doesn't need to read it.
But now I'm analyzing what Live Journal truly means to me. I've been using LJ in some form or another for nearly 7 years. But it's not as cathartic for me as it used to be. I examine the really intense issues in my paper journal, more often than not.
And I just don't think my life is as exciting as it used to be. When I started my LJ in 2001, I was just about to go to grad school. Lance and I had just started dating. Grad school was always full of interesting LJ material...struggles I had with teaching College Composition, juggling an academic life and a long-distance relationship, trying to get along with my roommate, my comprehensive exams.
Then there was my engagement, planning the wedding, moving to Germany.
Four years in Europe.
All that stuff was far more interesting than what I face now. And my LJ has suffered since I've moved here. And I've given serious thought to scaling back my writing on here and focusing more on other things. I have serious writing projects that have been collecting dust for awhile. At some point, I need to pick them up again. (And please...no comments lecturing me about the novel I abandoned...I know...I know.)
And we still have SO MUCH work to do on the house, which seems to be a real subject of interest to some people. I still intend to post about that, when there is something to post. Right now, we're still working on the same project we've been working on since the day after we closed on the house. I don't want to post anything else, especially photos, until it's actually done. And there are smaller projects that need doing, like hanging pictures and putting up shelves. And after we finish phase 1 of this current project, we need to find new flooring for the kitchen, and we're ripping out the pantry shelves and completely re-doing the pantry. There is always something to be done.
I think I want to try to get in the habit of writing in my paper journal more. I already do it more than I used to, but I want to depend on it more than I depend on LJ. I used to spend hours writing in paper journals when I was in high school. I wish I had that kind of discipline now.
Anyway...on to other things...
I got my shipment of books yesterday from my editor, so I'm now a book critic once again. The first book I felt compelled to grab out of the box was All for Love: The Scandalous Life and Times of Royal Mistress Mary Robinson. It was just released recently, so I figured I should get that done so that a review can be as timely as possible. Plus, I've been on a Philippa Gregory kick lately, so this was a good book to pick up after hers (Amanda Elyot is the author of this one, if anyone is interested). So far, so good.
Lance texted me to let me know he was on his way home when I was on chapter 2, I think, so I didn't get that far into it. Once I knew he was coming home, I started fixing our appetizer and I unloaded the dishwasher. And then my focus was completely on him once he came home, so I didn't pick up the book again.
Overall, we had a nice evening. Some cheesy bread. Some pizza. I had a delicious Washington State Riesling. The cheesecake I picked up was kind of disappointing. We played 4 games of Yahtzee...I beat Lance 3 games to 1. It wasn't a particularly special evening...just quiet. And we were together. And that's what mattered.
He works half a day today. I have a doctor appointment at 11. We should be getting home around the same time. We'll have leftovers from last night and then head to McChord to take care of some business. Then our evening will be spent stripping wallpaper. Lance just needs to decide if we should prime the walls or paint the ceiling this weekend. My goal is to knock this part of the project out over the next 2-3 weekends, before Lance goes to training at OKC.
Then I want the flooring to be absolutely the next thing we do. The current linoleum in the kitchen always looks dirty just because of the pattern on it. And it's white besides. It's hideous and I hate it. And Lance complains about it too, so it's not just me.