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Two friends of mine in Germany are leaving within the next 10 days or so.

One is going to Valencia, Spain. The other, to Greece.

It's been days filled with emotional goodbyes and the madness and stress that comes with moving. I remember this well. Communicating with both of them about how they're feeling right now has brought back a flood of emotions regarding my own departure and how difficult and confusing that was. In many ways, I've never gotten over it. Germany was where I finally felt true contentment for the first time in my life. It took awhile to get there, but I got to a point where I could wake up every morning and feel gratitude for the way my life turned out. I haven't felt that way since we left, except for brief moments here and there.

In the middle of the chaos, my Spain-bound friend takes the time to reflect, rather poetically, I think, on the beauty of her everyday life in Germany. What she is going to miss, it's palpable. She and her family have really integrated themselves into village life and the entire NATO community there, much more so than most people do. I have no doubt that she'll do the same in Spain and I am looking forward to reading about her journey there.

My Greece-bound friend, too caught up in moving, has only given me fleeting glimpses of her life as it stands right now. She posted something on her Facebook the other day that struck such a deep chord in me, because I could relate to it so profoundly, that I felt tears stinging my eyes.

Lance and I talk about going back. When our assignment here is over. Maybe. It just won't be the same. After these two leave, I will only have a few friends left there. In a few years, most of them will likely be gone. Going back would truly be starting over, and I don't know if I can do that again. Somewhere else in Europe, maybe. Just not Geilenkirchen.

Date: 2009-06-23 06:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vereorc.livejournal.com
Moving is tough, no matter where you're going. Just as it took you a while to get adjusted to living in Germany, far away from family and knowing no one except Lance, it will probably take you just as long to feel the same way about the Northwest.

I remember your writing at the time about how much you loved living in Germany, but how ready you were to have a dog, own a house, and be in a position to get back to your education/career. Now you have those things!

Date: 2009-06-23 02:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] prosodic.livejournal.com
Yeah, but having a dog is about the only one of those 3 things that has worked out so far. Owning a home has been much worse than we expected, especially since we're working so hard on it and it's becoming worth less than what we paid for it. And being a homeowner is keeping me from going back to school because of all the debt we're in (taking out more loans is out of the question). And we won't even discuss a career. We left Germany around the same time to recession started here, so I had no idea that things would turn out as they did.

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